Episode 108- Lottery-ya

Solo episode! Jose talks about the lottery, knowing your worth while not being a dick about it and yada yada. Oh and a failed Chupacabra capturing attempt.

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Email: josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 104- Ghost Stories 2018

G-G-Ghost Stories are a great part of the Halloween season. Jose is joined by Steffie, co-host and girlfriend of Martin Rizo (who joins when he’s not completely terrified). Personal haunting experiences are shared, beliefs in what the spirits are and a little bit of Rizo’s fear of the paranormal.

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@steffie_la @comicmartinrizo

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Episode 101- Not Scared, But Excited

Solo Episode!

Jose recounts his poor eating habits, spending time with his family and taking his autistic nephew to Disneyland.

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Email if ya wanna. josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 98- Note to Self

Solo episode! Jose talks about his weekend, goes over hosting notes and responsibilities and taking time for yourself, even if it’s not about being productive. Oh yeah and don’t be an a**hole because you think it’s what everyone is doing.

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Email: josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 97- Dad Mode

Brian McDaniel joins Jose again, for the 2nd time, as a returning person who has come back again. They talk natural comedic skills, being too old to party, defending themselves against cats and all things awkward.

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Episode 96- Adults

Comedian and Adult Actress Silvia Sage, Stoner and Comedian Stoner Rob join Jose to talk comedy, the downsides to sex, comedy and being an adult. Brainstorming for quick rich schemes and Jose retells the story of getting hit by Steve-O.

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Email for topics or something: Josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 95- Nick Guerra

Guest Nick and Jose talk comedy marketing, hip hop and get serious. Like super, duper, serious.

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Episode 93- Hi. Long Time.

Solo episode! Jose talks about stuff he’s been up to. Melting in the car, trying to be a nice person and how we easily forget manners when we are around the masses.

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Email me for stuff: josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 91- Michelle Stevenson

Comedian and Nurse Michelle Stevenson joins Jose on this episode. She gets a little knowledgable about Nursing stuff and Jose gets knowledgeable on being unable to twerk.

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Episode 89- Antebellum

Solo episode! Jose talks about the things that make people bitter, even though it doesn’t really matter. He also talks about expanding your vocabulary to improve your ability to deliver your exact thoughts and breaks down an awkward situation with a drunken bar patron, as well as reaching out to those who are depressed.

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Episode 88- Class of 2018

Solo episode! Jose talks about his Mom almost getting into a fight, how honesty is deserved to be heard and told and how a smart kid gave some great advice that Jose didn’t do justice. Talking in third person as if I have an assistant is weird.

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Episode 87- Compliance

Jose and guest Aerial Washington do a Bus Chronicle episode about a woman who claimed to be an undercover police officer.

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Episode 86- Insomniyuhh

Jose can’t sleep! So, a new episode. A brief talk about the comedy workout, thoughts of adopting, music and concerts, almost becoming a cop and a brief thought on Roseanne.

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email: josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 84- What Would You Do?

Jose is joined by Aerial Washington in this episode. A brief solo discussion about approaching a stranger in an emotional situation, a Morgan Freeman impersonation contest and a new edition of Bus Chronicles. Subscribe and rate on iTunes and Stitcher.

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Email: JoseChavezComedian@gmail.com

Episode 83- Pattern Changes

Solo episode! Jose goes on and on about doing things for yourself, changing your patterns and shares a story about working with Chuck D from Public Enemy and Chino XL.

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Email for stuff: josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 81- STOP! OR MY MOM WILL RUN YOU OVER

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!! Jose talks about his scary Mom and the time she almost ran a teenager over, how you have to be patient and working to see what is and isn’t your true vice.

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Episode 79- Xzibit A

Jose and Aerial Washington talk nonsense, old timey slang and music that embarrasses the hell out of them.

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Episode 77- Keep on Truckin’

Solo episode! Jose records out of his Chevy S10 talking about memories changing, ghost stories and processing stress/adrenaline.

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Episode 75- Ralph Guerra Returns!

Mom don’t listen! This is a mature episode. Ralph Guerra, comedian and friend, returns after 73 episodes to catch up with Jose. They talk drinking too much, displaying their body, social vices, celebrity crushes, time traveling perverts, embarrassing songs in their playlists and all things awkward.

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Episode 73- John, Jeff, John, Jodie, Jose, Jenine

Jose and guest co-host Aerial Washington talk creepy moments, awkward moment with hearing neighbors have sex, AI movie concept, Jeff Goldblum, bad date that turned into creep and convicted sex offender, and Bus Chronicles advice.

Be sure to follow Aerial @aerial87 on IG

For questions, advice or to share an awkward story, email josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 72- Comedians In Cars Getting Churros

Comic Martin Rizo and Jose Chavez sit down in Rizo’s car to talk about ghetto comedy shows, staying in awful hotels, Marvel Films and a man date to Disneyland. Check out Rizo’s podcast Squad By The Bell. Rate and subscribe!

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Episode 70- Change The Narrative

Solo episode! Jose sees another mans manhood, productive distractions and dating for the wrong reason.

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Episode 68- Off The Grid

Solo episode! I deleted my social media (though I think I forgot twitter. I’ll get to it). I catch up on my weekend, record a quick solo and I’ll be posting a full length episode later tonight!

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Episode 67- Because I’m Awkward

Jose records from his truck! Talks about writing a kids book, taking a break from comedy and having a sexy ass voice. All this and the good, bad and awkward.

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Episode 65- I forgive Me

Solo Episode! Jose talks about forgiving yourself, even when you think you don’t deserve it. Admitting to your faults, accepting consequence and a couple of personal stories to educate on why you shouldn’t drink and drive. Oh, and a dude at the beach is a creep!

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For topic suggestions, awkward advice and to share an awkward experience email josechavezcomedian@gmail.com

Episode 64- Neighborly Love

In this solo episode, Jose talks about trying to avoid the pitfalls of repetitive bad patterns including emotional dumping, habits of criticism and being reluctant to do the things that could improve your day to day headspace.

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Episode 63- Awkward Advice

Solo Episode! Jose reads the second email asking for advice, and it’s about moving for new love! Jose rambles on with advice on whether or not to take a chance and learning how to take advice from those who you dismiss. Also, Bachelor sucks.

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Episode 62- Aerial Washington Returns

Aerial Washington, host of the bus chronicles on this podcast, is become a part-time cohost! We talk public arguments, Black Panther, scared women and all things awkward.

Follow on instagram: @josechavezcomic @aerial87

Episode 61- Martin Rizo Returns Again

@comicmartinrizo welcomes Jose into his bedroom (eww) to record a podcast talking about fight or flight, real life super heroes, comics, comedy, dating and all things awkward.

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Episode 59- Brodie Reed

Brodie Reed @ayo.bro.bro talks with Jose about weird neighbors, roommates, the comedy scene and Brodies sketch fest, Channel 101.

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Episode 58- Recycle, Reduce Produce

Solo Episode- Jose decides to take comedy in a different direction, talks about compromise and restructuring your path in life and career.

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Episode 57- Hard TARGET

Solo Episode- Back from Portland with a couple stories! Running through the airport, drunk hecklers, Rough Riders, getting offended and all things awkward.

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Episode 56- Antisocial Media

Solo Episode- Jose’s traveling! The pitfalls of those who defend or attack Aziz Ansari, Social Media disconnecting people and attempts to disconnect from the world to connect with the people.

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Episode 54- Ariel Kashanchi

Ariel Kashanchi joins Jose this week to promote a show at the Ice House. During the cat-friendly episode, they discuss being on the spectrum, diets, cheese, sibling pranks, and being a dick. Follow Ariel on IG @arielsnotamermaid

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Episode 52- New Year, Old Jose.

Solo Episode- Jose recaps NYE, talks about random thoughts and tries to dial back the ego that comes with committing yourself to your work.

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Episode 51- Cristela and Steve- LIVE

Cristela Alonzo and Steve Halasz Join us for the first live recording of Awkwardly Social at the House of Brews in San Fernando, CA. We discuss comedy, careers and the pitfalls of trying to tell your story and relate to the world. We do a quick Q&A with the audience and we learn Steve has a career in the rap game. We take a brief moment to say goodbye to a favorite local spot and keep it awkward. Be sure to follow Steve and Cristela @cristela9 and @steveisok

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Episode 49- Ri Versteegh

Ri Versteegh @riversteegh joins Jose in a great conversation about dating, stalkers, Swedish vs. American behavior, soulmates, polygamy, receiving the wrong message and all things awkward.

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Episode 48- Jose Chavez y Chavez

SOLO EPISODE! Jose talks about dummies that don’t pay photographers, Those who spoil, obsessing over social media likes and all things awkward. Catch Jose at Oxnard Levity Live December 19th 2017 8PM.

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Live Podcast Taping 12/28/17

I’ll be doing my first live podcast recording December 28th at the House of Brews Coffee House in San Fernando, CA.

Returning guest Steve Halasz and first time guest Cristela Alonzo (voice of Cruz Ramirez in Cars 3) will be joining me as we sit and chat comedy, careers and all things awkward. Free show however seating is first come first served so arrive early.

Follow us on Instagram @josechavezcomic @steveisokay @cristela9

Episode 47- Keenan Baker

Keenan Baker @keenanbaker joins Jose in talking acting, the hustle of pursuing careers, high school reunions, writing for other ethnicities, aspiring rap careers and fandom in nerd culture.

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Episode 46- Dani Fernandez Returns!

@msdanifernandez Dani Fernandez, Comic Con panels host and fellow nerd, joins Jose in discussing fandom, dating, the myth that is the ‘friend zone’, creepy dudes and all things awkward. Catch Dani on Hyper RPG hosting a myriad of shows that showcase comic and nerd culture.

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Episode 45- Jose and Hose B

SOLO EPISODE! Jose talks about the fires, comedy, getting stabbed by his sister and more! Not much more, but more.

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Episode 43- Jose Chavez All Alone

SOLO EPISODE! Jose recaps Thanksgiving, shares his thoughts on family life and the holiday drama. There’s a personal revelation that inspires a comedy album endeavor and a brief story about someone who out-Awkward-ed Jose.

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Episode 42- Sean Grant

@seangrantwords (Sean Grant) gets serious and comic in talking comedy/religion and the places we find/compromise with separating the artist from the art. Follow Sean Grant on IG as well @seangrantpictures

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Episode 41- R-Mean

@rmean Rapper R-Mean joins us this week talking about the parallels of hip-hop/comedy, delving into the message and politics in the lack of acknowledgement of the Armenian genocide, Mexican/Armenian beef, careers and Plan B’s in life while pursuing your passion and Jose tries to get R-Mean to let him get on a track. Be sure to check out R-Mean’s music on Soundcloud and iTunes.

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Episode 40- Jose Chavez

Jose is flying solo in this short episode! He talks about those being outed for being scummy people in the industry, advice to men regarding a moral compass, and what motivates you to pursue a passion. Happy Veterans day to those who have served and continue to do so.

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Episode 39- Justin Rupple

Justin Rupple is a great friend, Comedian and does amazing impressions. He’s been seen on the new USA show “First Impressions” with Dana Carvey, and in the film “Operation Chromite” starring alongside Liam Neeson. Justin joins Jose in this episode talking about social cues, skepticism and the pitfalls of a closed mind and… aliens?

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Episode 38- Aerial Washington

Aerial Washington joins us this week talking about beauty pageants, being a part of the comedy community as a non-comic, and we introduce a segment called the Bus Chronicles where she runs into unsavory characters and a micro community.

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Episode 37- Julio Gonzalez

@ogcomedy Julio Gonzalez stops by to talk comedy, hustling as kids and his drastic weight loss. Life lessons are shared in yet another awkward episode.

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Episode 36- Christine Medrano

@christinemed Christine Medrano and Jose talk comedy, meeting and working with your idols, the #MeToo movement and PDA. Be sure to follow Christine and send some support her way as she gets ready to do her first HBO Latino taping.

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New Sketch! Day Laborer.

@comicmartinrizo @josechavezcomic star.

When a day laborer is solicited for the oldest profession in the world.

 

Episode 35- Jose Chavez solo Pt. 3

Another solo episode! Random thoughts spewed in this third solo round. Jose talks about an episode with depression and the advice given to him. Also, a quick lesson in trying not to be a dick.

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Episode 34- Carlos Santos

@_Carlos_Santos Carlos Santos guests on this episode of Awkwardly Social. Carlos and Jose discuss previously recorded and lost episode, the burdens of being a beautiful man, being a spokesperson for burner phones and all awkward situations!

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Episode 33- Jose’s Random Thoughts

Another solo episode! Random thoughts spewed in Jose’s second solo episode. A brief thought telling the story of quick to judge scenarios and an experience with racism that was never processed as what it was.

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Episode 32- Jay Washington

@mrjaywashington (Jay Washington) guests on this episode of Awkwardly Social. Jay and Jose discuss relationships, comedy and confess their past crimes. Subscribe on iTunes and give us a rating!

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Episode 31- Solo Episode

Jose did a short episode flying solo, sharing random thoughts about men trying to defend themselves unnecessarily.

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Jose Chavez on Krillin It Super!

@ifysnotfunny @missdanifernandez @hyper_rpg

Jose Chavez and RuthAnn Thompson (@ru_thompson) guest on Hyper RPG’s online Dragon Ball Super recap show, Krillin It Super with Dani Fernandez and Ify Nwadiwe. Watch as they recap episode 18 and other silly ass online content created with DBS characters.

New Sketch. Jose Can Skate!

Shot and edited on my iPhone. When we have 20 minutes to kill, we film. Be sure to follow @theandrewfultz and @josechavezcomic

So I Ran Into My Childhood Bullies At a Comedy Show the Other Night…

Written By Jose Chavez @IAmJoseChavez

I tried to make this quick but when I write at 1:30AM I can’t help but be a bit wordy. Forgive the grammar and the redundancies.

  Recently while at a comedy show, I ran into my childhood bullies. Like, insult me til I cried, pushed me to the floor, hit me and make me want to kill myself as a kid type bullies. Pretty sure they recognized me as I did them. Their faces had obviously aged, wrinkles setting in, tired eyes and facial hair. Though they were all grown up, certain attributes had been burned into my brain and that was all I needed to know it was them. And like a flash of lightning, my mind immediately took a trip down memory lane, passed the abandonment issues and straight to the meat of the defining moments of my childhood ages eight through fourteen.
  I always told myself if I saw them as an adult I’d give them shit for what they did, maybe throwing in a punch or two. How weak I felt in the wake of their constant mockery and physical aggression. When they gave me a nickname that stuck with me until I was fourteen that was so childish but hurtful not because of what it was but what it represented. How little things like eye contact with others was a challenge or a hug from people made me feel like a nervous wreck. And the long term repercussions of being unable to speak to new groups of people without fear of getting bullied again and an inability to have a normal social life for a majority of my life so I never really felt like I was finally free from the pain they inflicted. Not having a strong male influence in the house I felt like I had no one to turn to when it came to the abuse, other than my notepad, of course. I was a typical emotional kid and it felt like the social norm so I let it be and accepted that this was just how it was. And seeing them now as adults, all of those memories came rushing back.
I didn’t say anything. I didn’t bite my tongue, I just chose to process the moment.
  I saw them, and they saw me. They were at the comedy club, which is essentially my turf. We were surrounded by my friends, none of which knew the situation since everything I was processing was kept internal. I took some boxing lessons at 17 and while I’m not in the best shape I’ve kept up with some strength training. Initially so I wouldn’t be bullied again but now mostly because age and health… stupid aging process. I had every opportunity to use my newly acquired verbal skills (from dealing with hecklers and performing comedy in general) and I said nothing. Well,not nothing. I was feeling great. Like, I had an amazing week of shows, personal life and professional life was in order and I just had myself a nice rum and coke which loosens me up after a set. People were talking about my shows at other venues and how they enjoyed my comedy in front of these former bullies. I was making people laugh in conversation, which isn’t my normal thing. Usually I’m more quiet and let the conversations flow around me. I can honestly say that when I saw the bullies and was in the right place, the right time and the right frame of mind I came to a conclusion that I didn’t even know was capable; I didn’t give two shits about them or what they did.
  I wasn’t angry at them. At most I felt a little MEH about the whole thing, which caught me off guard after all those years of building myself up with knowing what I would say to them. I always thought I needed closure, like a moment where I’m on stage, see them in the audience and yell at them saying “I MADE IT YOU FUCKING PIECES OF SCUMBAG SACK OF SHITS NO FUCKING THANKS TO YOU!!!” or something a little more PG.  Instead I got something better. I had a moment where I was so powerful, so centered and in the middle of getting positive feedback from audience members that I literally felt NOTHING. I guess not needing any closure was the closure itself. An apology from them does nothing for me and me telling them how I am now no thanks to them does nothing for me either. They owe nothing to me now; the me from back then would love to hear the “I’m sorry” speech from them but that’s not who I am. Not anymore. They can take no credit for who I am. I’m not strong because of them. I’m strong in spite of them.
  Life rewarded me with a family that loves and supports me despite my constant jokes. I’m pursuing a path that gives people a night of laughter to wash away most of the crap they deal with while allowing me to let out anything and everything that I feel in the moment. I didn’t have a voice for a long time because of my tormentors and comedy gave me an even stronger voice. I’m happy, even with the depression that I struggle with at times I’m still genuinely happy. I can’t recommend this path for everyone when it comes to confronting your bullies and some people would probably have liked to have faced them with more aggression and say what I would have said had I not been to busy living a great fucking life. It’s my life and I chose to keep living it, despite the opt-out option that I had considered many times over the years. All I can really say is the best way to move on and show your victimizers that they didn’t win is to just be. EXIST, and move forward.  There’s a slight chance that they feel remorse or that they themselves were acting out because they had their own trials. Either way that’s not my concern nor should it be yours. I’m going to end with a roughly paraphrased quote. It’s not that “It Gets Better” but that “You’ll Get Stronger”.
I feel pretty fucking strong right now.

Episode 24- Dani Fernandez (Part 2)

Dani Fernandez @msdanifernandez returns in part 2 of #AwkwardlySocial We discuss failed attempts at being trendy, the struggle of a comic and writer and all things awkward. Be sure to follow Dani Fernandez on twitter and instagram.

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Episode 4- Melissa Villaseñor

Melissa Villasenor, an SNL cast member, stops by and definitely brings the funny. We talk about family, her career before and after her initial introduction to the world with America’s Got Talent and discover her only flaw is not being interested in the Avengers (but we love you anyway Melissa!)

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